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The thing about love…It’s crazy what it makes you do and think.  How we behave, how we see ourselves, how we change through it and for it.  I’ve been in love…many times.  That one time I committed to marriage, for nine years.  Gave those years to that one person.  The one that meant so much before I was old enough to even know what that truly meant.  But still I rode it out, until it died that slow, quiet death.  When you come to the point where the passion has been gone for so long and there is nothing else holding on to you and you can finally look at that person and honestly say “we did the best we could, but it was over quite a few years ago.”  And then there was the rebound…It was a passionate love, accompanied by the notion that I was not going to make the same mistakes that I made with my marriage.  I vowed to myself that I was going to be fierce and express what I want and not settle for less.  He loved that openness  and honesty and passion.  It was nothing he had ever known before, and it scared him.  A love without the typical complications?  It couldn’t be real!  Years after the demise of that love, he still sends me messages every year when he is intoxicated and is reminded by the loneliness of the holidays. and I appreciate those moments of the residual emotions…And then there was the most profound love.  I could write a book on what love should look like based on this one.  But circumstances supposedly pulled it apart.  I decided to be more honest, than fierce.  To really give myself up to the one, and be me completely for him.  It seemed perfect, unhindered, at first.  This grand love was not to be so.  Full of deceit and fear on both his part as well as mine.  Cherishing so much what it was, I almost would’ve told myself anything to believe it was right…All in all, what I did learn is that true love is not created with or for someone else.  True love is the love one has for themselves.  True love is when one does not need the reassurance, or affirmation, or accommodation of others.  It is once you are so sound and comfortable with being in a room by yourself, hearing your own voice, and developing a positive and healthy relationship with the inner chatter that you can actually learn to appreciate the company with another human being, hopefully with another human being that appreciates there own inner dialogue just the same.  So my advice to you, keep practicing loving and accepting.  Be kind to yourself.  Be passionate about all that is around you, all that you are about and eventually you will find the one that is equally as passionate about you.  Namaste! 🙂